After many years of watching a case of domestic violence unfurl itself before my eyes, and having no way in which to extricate my loved one from its jaws of slow and steady death, blessed release has, at last, come, as she walked away.
Few believe the Universe is totally good, that it is always conspiring to heal us, that it choreographs all our experiences for our highest good. I am one of those.
My prayer today:
Please uncover within me the dark strands of wariness and distrust that lie within my being. I am aware that they are there because of my painful past experiences of the perceived betrayal of my inner trust. I felt that my fear and anger, and the resultant shutting down of my trust, were necessary for my survival at the time. I forgive myself for closing my heart of pure love, as I realize that pure love is actually my true nature.
Help me to look at those closed areas of my innocence and the dark strands of distrust that lie within me. I use the light of my consciousness to move toward surrender, gently, as a flower bud opens to the light of the sun. (I realize that this may mean, at first, gathering the courage to simply touch the edges of that distrust within.)
